I’m going through a horrible time in my life at the moment. I’m in bondage to the enemy, I’m not giving him credit. Today was the worse day of my life. My fear of death is so overwhelming it’s killing me. I went to prayer meeting last night, instead of me praising God for His goodnes and all that He does, all I do is blaspheme Him and I’m so tired. I’m really in a bind. I’m so afraid of it, that sometimes I consider suicide, this is suicide right now, my thoughts and emotions.