I don’t care about life any more

by Monee (Chicago Il)

Dear God,

I feel like I can go on in this life all of mylife all Ive known was pain and suffering; I taught myself how to pretend that I was happy when in reality I wasnt and I dont know what purpose I have here on this earth because everyone I ever loved either mistreated me or abused me. I admit Im not the perfect princess by any means but I always gave my whole heart to people no matter how I was feeling. But guess what I always got the short end of the stick. Im at a point in mylife that I dont have any more hope, faith or belief Im only existing not living it hurts me every morning to even wake up because I know theres nothing in this life for me but heartache, pain and suffering I know that I have to exist because my kids are depending on me but other than that I am dead. Ive prayed so hard and so many times but not be answered. Im at the end of my rope only holding on by an non existing I feel like I cant do this life thing anymore Im so exhausted and tired.