Help me find the strength and courage

Lord, please help me find the strength and courage to get through what awaits me in this next 3 months. My MRI results will undoubtedly show that my back is worst than the last MRI they did 2 years ago. I will probably have to undergo spinal fusion and my life will forever be changed. I will go from being a pill-free person, to having to take daily doses of medication to keep the pain at bay. I am terrified to go through this, but I must – this is my load to bear alone.

Please don’t let me give up that easily, just because life doesn’t appear to be worth living anymore. Dear Lord, I know that we are all your children and that you care about all of us. Help me please!