Help

by Elisha (Australia )

I’ve recently gotten out of an extremely toxic relationship with a narcissist. I now feel hopeless, shattered, emotionally drained and too tired to carry on. After being exposed to so much negativity and falling victim to slander and blackmail I feel a sudden shift in who I am. I’ve lost my bubbly personality and free spirited nature, I fear that I’m losing my empathy for people and becoming more like my narcisstic ex, I’ve become distressed till the point he is constantly on my mind. The thought of him pains me and tortures me, I want to move on with my life and be happy. Yet I fear that the emotional and psychological abuse had impacted me greatly. Just today I have already experienced two anxiety attacks.i am losing my mind and I know deep down I just need a miracle and God’s grace to be able to get me out of this mess. I’m in desperate need to end this suffering. It would such an Honour to know if people out there in the world can free me from this pit of torment.

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  1. You are so brave, Elisha.

    First of all, you are incredibly brave for getting out of the relationship. That is probably the hardest thing you could have ever done. Going through everything that you did and experiencing everything that he put you through was incredibly difficult but not as difficult as leaving. Of course you are experiencing these thoughts and feelings of him constantly but I promise you that it will get better. I promise. Please seek counseling. If you do not have the financial means, seek a church or a counseling institution that you can pay on a “sliding financial scale”. They are out there. Also, talk to someone. Talk to a friend, a family member. Someone that is caring and that will not judge you. If the person or people that you choose to discuss this with are not supportive and have your BEST interests at heart choose not to discuss it with them any longer. You need a support system that is positive and only has positive and helpful things to attribute to your situation.

    You have only “lost” yourself for a brief time. I assure you with some time, counseling and personal healing you will become yourself again. He wanted you to “lose” yourself. He does not like himself and did not like the person you were and was jealous of that. He is envious of what you are and wanted to break you down. But you did not allow that and left didn’t you? The slander and blackmail is so textbook abuse and narcissist. I went through the same thing and it tore me to pieces and I wasted so much time letting it ruin my life. I don’t want it to do that to you. The people that want to believe his lies are not people that you want in your life anyway. You will eventually see that.

    I cannot free you from this pain but I can promise you that with time it will get better. Please seek counseling and a loving, support system. I will pray for your strength and courage and also for the ease of your anxieties during this difficult and emotional time. Stay brave.

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