Lord tonight I sit in the dark and I can’t sleep because my mind is full of sadness and my mind is filled with thought hurts. My heart feels so heavy and it aches so bad! I hate feeling like this. I feel betrayed by my some of my family members and a couple of friends. It just seems as though I am being punished by them when all I try to do is live with compassion, love, support, grace, caring and honesty towards these people and all they do is hurt me with their actions. I try so hard to ignore it and not let it bother me or get to me but it is just too much! I feel like I am stoned and blamed for things I did not do. I need strength lord, I need your guidance and protection to not have a heavy heart or have my heart be filled with hate because that is not what I want and that is not what you thought me. I am confused and wonder why, why am I being treated so bad. Why am I so misunderstood. Lord I want you to know that I appreciate all of your blessings even in this time of frustration and hurtfulness. I am so very thankful for all that you give me lord. Thank you for my very loving and supportive husband and we are so very bless with your loving hand on him daily. Thank you Lord for my two beautiful and healthy girls, please continue to bless them and keep them safe from harm and illness. I usually look to them for strength because they remind me of your presence on a daily basis, but lately Lord it has been very hard with all this obstacles that is in front of me and I don’t know what else to do and I feel I don’t have strength Lord.
by Kim (Honolulu, Hawaii)