Please pray for God to take me to heaven without me dying tonight. God’s making me unhappy by not taking me to heaven without me dying. I swear that I won’t make it if God doesn’t take me to heaven without me dying tonight. It would have been better if God had taken me to heaven without me dying on the night of January 19th, 2020 because I would have been gone before January 21st, 2020. It would have been better if God had taken me to heaven without me dying on the night of January 19th, 2020 because I would have been gone before the Spring 2020 term began at school. There’s a rationale to God taking me to heaven without me dying tonight, which is good. I would have been better off if God had taken me to heaven without me dying already. I think that the incidents I went through over the past 3 years make me feel bad, ashamed, and embarrassed, which is understandable. I stand by me going to heaven without me dying tonight. The perfect time for God to take me to heaven without me dying was the night of January 19th, 2020. There’s a purpose to God taking me to heaven without me dying tonight. I’m done pretending, so God needs and has to take me to heaven without me dying tonight. Since living through it, God not taking me to heaven without me dying, getting into trouble, God not taking me to heaven without me dying tonight, and trouble determine it (for me), God’s taking me to heaven without me dying tonight. Living through it and God not taking me to heaven without me dying outweigh it (for me) where God has to take me to heaven without me dying tonight. I swear that I’ll die if God doesn’t take me to heaven without me dying tonight. God’s bringing me unhappiness by not taking me to heaven without me dying. I’m not going to keep staying even despite God not taking me to heaven without me dying. I’m not going to keep staying despite God not taking me to heaven without me dying tonight. I am gone if God takes me to heaven without me dying. I’m not going to keep living even despite living through it and trouble. I believe and think that I had my limit. So I am gone if God takes me to heaven without me dying tonight. If God takes me to heaven without me dying tonight, then God taking me to heaven without me dying tonight matters, which is good. Having nothing to live for is a reason to go. Having nothing to look forward to is a reason to go. Living through it is a reason to make me want to go. I won’t tolerate God not taking me to heaven without me dying any longer. I don’t get what I want if God doesn’t take me to heaven without me dying tonight. God doesn’t give me what I want if God doesn’t take me to heaven without me dying tonight. Why can’t God understand that God taking me to heaven without me dying is serious? Why can’t God understand that I’m serious about God taking me to heaven without me dying? Because of my situation and circumstance, God’s taking me to heaven without me dying tonight.
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