I find myself in a rut that I put myself in, I knew where the drink would take me, I knew what wrath I would face for deceiving my parents. It is here I cannot provide any help or guidance to myself. It is here I beg for comfort in this hole I sit.
I am helpless and have no where to go to my parents who do not have the resources to get me out of here. I pray that there can be something done to rid me of this misery. I was not a loyal servant or son and I must face judgement. I pray that these events mold me into a man that lives in the way of your son Jesus.
For I am only a man who cannot define myself without Christ. Please Lord. Anyway you can, take the burden off of my families shoulders.