Four years of praying

by Jen Toland (Everett, WA (US)

God, I am so bitter and my attitude sucks. Please help me. It is so unfair, Lord. I’ve loved him so deeply, and I’ve lost so much. I’ve begged you to bring us back together.

He’s finally the man I deserved all along, and someone else is getting his best. Meanwhile, Ive cried, Ive put up walls, I have changed in ways I never thought I would. All i want is an apology, for him to tell me it wasn’t my fault, that it was the drugs and not me, that took him away. I thought being in a program mandated making things right with the people he hurt. I guess Im not in that pool.
Still love you Lord, but I sure feel betrayed.
Jen