On April 23, I lost my job of 7 years. I didn’t get paid a lot of money, yet, it was a job, a job that allowed me to pay my bills and get most of the things that I needed for everyday living expenses.
More than anything, I’ve been struggling with my job loss and have fallen into depression.
I cry everyday. From the moment that I wake up and till I fall asleep.
Along with the struggles of not having a job and begging creditors, phone company, gas & light company, car lender, insurance companies, etc, to give me extensions to pay them and not knowing how i’m gonna make it without losing everything, I’m also dealing with the infidelity and deceit of a man whom I’ve been dating for almost two years now.
I love him so much and I’ve been trying to believe in him and take his word that things will change, yet things are still the same.
With the relationship issues added, It almost seems unbearable.
I don’t eat much, I don’t talk much and I don’t do anything but lay around all day, crying and hurt and feeling like I’m worthless and like I just want to give up.
These things have truly halted my life and damaged my spirit to the core.
I don’t understand why so many things are going wrong in my life right now and why I’m here.
for the past two and a half years, I’ve been hurt by so many events, losing my dad to pancreatic cancer swiftly, me almost losing my life to pulmonary embolism, my relationship crumbling and me losing my job.
I haven’t had a break and I haven’t been the same since me losing my dad.
Please help me to pray for better circumstances and uplifting and honest relationships in my life.
I need a job more than anything, I just pray that I make it through this without losing what I have worked so hard for.
I feel so broken. Please help me pray.Return to Daily Devotional