feel helpless

please don’t think of this as selfish, but I do not know how to help myself. I need to beg God for His help getting me back on track with my life and the goals I have almost acheived yet now have gone backwards. I am having so much anger with myself, disgust, and self pity and cannot seem to pull myself out. I am on medication but am downward spiriling so fast not sure I can climb out. I know He can help but feel too weak to ask by myself. Please pray for me.