I feel so ashamed praying about something as minuscule as money. I feel foolish because I feel as if you are already looking out for me and I really don’t want to whine or complain, as I am lucky to be alive, lucky for everything you have given to me. I find myself drowning in the debt I have accumulated from school, my own mistakes, and even the mistakes of others I tried to help. I always thought I was doing the right thing, but to be honest I don’t know what the right thing even is anymore. I could pray for the funds to take away my burden, but I don’t think this is wise. So instead I’ll pray for strength because I’m not so worried about my financial health as I am my mental health. I feel my mind slipping away and darkness clouding my thoughts and judgement. I try to cling on to my faith for dear life, but I’m weak and my fear has crippled me.
If anyone reads this please pray for me. I don’t want to lose my faith and I don’t want to go insane. I don’t want something as small as money to take me away from God. I don’t know how long I have, but I don’t want the rest of my life to be driven by fear. It seems pointless to ask for much so I’ll ask for simply this. Please pray for my strength and my health. Thank you