Lord, I’m so broken, beat and mentally exhausting. This is so hard to admit, because I’m always trying to be strong for everybody else around me. I’ve been told that you won’t give us more then we can handle, that everything happens for a reason.
Throughout all my many struggles,hurdles and road blocks I always had the faith and knew there was light at the end of the tunnel but at this point I’m drowning, as soon find a way to the surface to gasp for air I’m being shoved back under. I’m not even sure I can come to terms with the facts that lie in front of me, the pain and the sadness that infect the people around me, the people that I love most Is poisoning my body, mind and soul.
Lord god, you know I’ve been thrown down guided and deserted on some pretty dark roads in my time, and even through these times I would give and help others at the expense of myself, but now God I need you more then ever I have nothing more to give, my fire is out my heart is broken and I’m so weak I can even stand. Everything I have worked so hard for is gone I have nothing left but my sweet little boys that you have blessed us with. The tears that fill there big beautiful blue eyes and the holes That lie in their hearts As they are losing there father and watching everything crumble around them is the most real, heart wrenching thing I’ve ever seen. I can not lose are home as well. I need to find a way to feed, cloth, and shelter them. Please Lord I beg of you on my knees to help me find a job so I can provide just the necessities, so we can get threw this dark time in our life. Please help find affordable safe child care for them this is something I fear because it’s so expensive and it’s so important there safe and I can be at peace of my mind while I work knowing my babies are safe, so I can give my best to my employer. Please Lord God I need you more then ever to watch over my family and guide me. Just throw me a bone nothing glamorous just something that’s enough to get buy. Please Lord hold my children’s hand as we crawl down this dark road and help them find peace in there hearts and happiness. Lord I’m not sure of the plans you have in store for Daniel or our family at this time, But Daniel also needs you lord he is scared and has been for a long time. He is a good man, with a heart of gold and you know his faith in you Lord. You put him in my life for a reason and he saved me through you. He is irreplaceable to Austin and Maddox and is my soul mate and could never be replaced. Please help open the hearts of the people that view him as a monster, for this he has never been. Lord, Daniel needs this from you! he was screaming for help and we were unsuccessful on getting him that help in time Lord God I ask for you to shine your light On the Fraizer family. please help mend There heart as they mourn The loss of their husband, father and grandfather. these are good people That dedicated their life to you and I can not imagine what they must be going through at this time. Please God bless this family and watch over them as they walk there path in this process, give them peace and help them heal, hug there heart and take there tears no more pain, no more I beg if you Lord Jesus Christ!
I say this in Jesus’s name