I have fought all my life to sty on this earth. Almost every day I think of killing myself, but I am afraid. What if I fail? I could not bear to wake up still here. I have tried several times when I was younger only to find myself still here.
I can not seem to find any reason to stay any longer. The sadness is overwhelming. I go through the motions every day and all around me have no idea that I am screaming for release from this agony.