I have struggled with believing that God loves me personally since childhood. I became sexually addicted at age 10 and have struggled with this sin for most of my life I also believed that God hated me as I was ugly and skinny and unpopular. I was generally disliked by the authority figures that were over me. In my adult years I have felt that I cannot please God in my relationship with Christ and I sense rejection and condemnation. I feel that there is no sense to reach out to Him. I don’t know what is wrong with me except that I’m bipolar depression disorder and that can cause me to become very negative and pessimistic about God and myself and life. Please pray for me as I don’t care whether I live.