I guess this addiction is the outcome of problems with children and my marriage falling apart. I was in rebellion after the death of my mom and alone. After almost 3yrs,I believe God lead me to come home and try to restore marriage. My son lost his children due to drugs and now we have our 2 yr old grandson. My family in chaos, my daughter won’t talk to me, my husband won’t stand up for me and I feel used up and all alone, my job on line due to time missed over child care and I feel am so confused and barely hanging on, was in er with high blood pressure and panic attacks….I need help now please pray that God moves or does me what to do as I am pressed on all sides and confusion isn’t from God.