Hi there I’m a 37 year old woman with an experienced failed relationship. I met a guy in 2015 , fell inlove with him and hoped am prayed for marriage. He made me think it will work for us for about 5 years. Until I found out within my suspicion, he was seeing someone seriously. Until today I’m shattered , cos not only had a feared this but I also cheated on my abusive partner with him. My prayers are for restoration, to find the true God fearing person for my life and to get over all the failed relationship . Though I still miss the guy im confused daily asking myself , through all this if we will still find each other oneday? Was all the years just a mess? Why did i allow the “string along”? I have he’s mom on social media, and so much want to open up to her and ask her advice . But I fear rejection. I find myself still checking up on him. I feel it’s a mess , cos I was in a love triangle, as it was my partner , him and another guy. It’s painful now, and it’s getting tough , cos all of them broke my heart…I have two kids that don’t stay with me . Yet I want them with cos I long that love ,so unconditional. Please pray for me , help me to let go the bad past and be be patient aswell for a good God fearing person that will love myself and kids endlessly