Dear Lord it seems as if my belief and what I want in life isn’t really good enough. Lord I have been through hell and back, the people that I love and was the protector of my life are the same people that hurt me the most. From father back to mother to best friend. Lord I have been rape molested and abuse Lord no more. Lord I want to be in a position in my where I can be independent even more and free even more. I know lord that freedom is a mental affect but I need it physically to Lord. Lord I want you to send some one with out fear and for love. Lord Jesus I don’t want to sound racial but Jesus Christ after all the hurt that Black people have put me through I cannot see myself with a Black man to settle down with. Please understand Lord.