Lord….It’s both of our faults….I was mean and unforgiving and my ex-boyfriend was too scared and gave up too easily. We strayed away from each other yet again to the point that he doesn’t want anything to do with me.
He tries to mask all of the pain and guilt inside by being extra happy. I get the brunt of the pain by being depressed inside out.
We both need deliverance and forgiveness. We need to feel loved and trusted. We need each other. We’re so attached to each other that I can’t let him go and he can’t forgive me properly.
His pride and ego get’s the best of him and he won’t give in to my apologies. I try my hardest to show him that I?m a genuine person but he won’t open his eyes.
The devil clouded his mind with thoughts of me being a bad person and the worst match he could ever have. I had him right where I wanted him two times and I lost him to the devil again.
The evilness tries so hard to keep us separate and make us feel miserable inside. I can’t even get inside of his heart anymore let alone be with him. I had enough!
I want him back but this time for good. I want the both of us to realize that we need each other. I want God to protect us and to keep our love for each other strong.
I can’t go on like this without this issue resolved and I know he can?t forgive until his heart is open again.
Lord, please give us the strength to carry on and need each other. I know he?s the one for me and I?m not giving up until I?m with him in the end.
In Jesus Christ’s name, Amen.