I am in dire need of some help. I am trying to find a place to live for myself, a good paying job and a partner. I crave companionship, and I want to be able to live, But every night before I go to bed I have this desire to kill myself. I am not sure it I will last to the end of the week with these thoughts. I am so lonely and close to being hopeless. I am not sure what to do. I just want to end this pain and loneliness. I even bought pills because I know that it will come to this end.
I seriously need money, so that I can live, and I need to pay off my debts, that I so stupidly got myself into. I hate myself and wish someone up there will have mercy on me.
I just ask that God/The Universe will help me because I am trying very hard to do the right thing. And I am tired of these obstacles and hardships. I am fragile and I am not afraid to say that I am weak, and I really need help. I will do anything.