Dearest Father, as I travel through the daunting bottom of the deep chasm of my depression, anxiety and hopelessness,
REMIND ME each morning as the sun’s rays shine through the thin cavern crevice that you are still with me.
HELP ME to know that you are in fact with me now MORE than or JUST AS you’ve been in recent years. HELP ME to know that the darkness that seems to engulf me is temporary. HELP ME to know that with tomorrow’s sunrise I will also have a new day. HELP ME to remember that my exhaustion is NOT from surrender, but is in fact from fruitfully applied effort to wrest myself from this darkness.
HELP ME to feel tired but NOT resigned/hopeless. HELP ME to be clear that it is in fact my HUNGER to be free of this (and not to accept it as a “forever” state) that is a sign of my continuing belief that I CAN heal and WILL heal. RESTORE IN ME the gay hopefulness that I’ve been able to apply in the past to all manner of daunting challenges. HELP ME to remember what it is that you’ve enabled me to bring then, so that I can find it (and bring it) again.
REMIND ME of the playful “play again” child that you’ve created in me so that I may know and trust in her “play again” belief once more. With all my heart, and in your name, I pray for restoration, relief, and renewal.