(A Foreign Country)
I’ve been addicted to the sin of sexual immorality for about half of my life. It slipped into my life as a youth and has remained a problem that has been constrained to the internet. I am married and fortunately my wife has been very forgiving and has known about this struggle yet her biggest struggle is complacency. This has translated to a problem of accountability. While I always confess to God and her- the issue still remains.While I know we are called to a healthy sexual relationship, there seems to be no interest on her end which I think is somewhat rooted in her complacency problem.
Maybe it’s demonic oppression, maybe it’s my lack of will which I strive to always take on the full responsibility for my sexual immorality.
I think I’m going to go on a fast and just put my computer away for a month. I have community but I can’t bring myself to talk about this issue with them. We are somewhat new and while I know I have a relationship with God- something just doesn’t seem right about bringing this up with them, given how much other suffering is occurring in their lives.