I am struggling to show grace to my husband who has been abusive in his words and attacked my faith in God as being crazy for years. He went on to attacking our children with his words later in their teens, and he insists that it never happened. One son wants him gone, and the other asks me about once a month why he has to be his father. I have no words. I just feel guilt. And my husband just blames me for everything, which I do not handle as I should. I need guidance on what to do. I am searching for answers when I pray, but I have no idea if I am doing anything right. We are separated but living in the same house which just causes him to attack and me to react. I need stronger patience and to understand what I should be doing.