This morning I woke up crying again not as much but still crying again about my friend Matt who has gone away. I started pacing back and forth again with anxiety worrying about him and as I write this I cry still. I just ask God that you keep him safe and healthy. I ask god that you watch over him and he meant allot to me and I still hurt from his disappearance.
Today I celebrate 30 days of sobriety and even though my head is getting clear my heart is still foggy from missing my friend.
I ask god that you bring us back together when you think its best and that you watch over my sobriety so that I can be a better person to my friend and other people.
I also ask that you keep temptation from treating my sobriety. Last night I was strong to push away Jeffery and his attempts to ruin my sobriety, but what about next time. Im afraid I will not be so strong. Please keep him away from me god.
Thank you God, in jesus name i pray.
With all my heart and soul.